Ten years ago today, I was four months into motherhood sitting in our tiny apartment pondering about life.
Suddenly the thought, “this is nothing like I expected” popped into my head.
On a whim, probably while Judah napped and I should have been cleaning or doing who knows what I chose to start a blog. I didn’t have a clue of what I was doing. Most of the earlier posts look like a diary from a young girl and honestly I was simply a young girl in my early 20s. (And if it wasn’t for my brother .wordpress.com would still be in my URL — THANKS Jordan!)
My heart then was to reach my family and friends around the world with little life updates. As time went on I longed to cast a larger net but I didn’t really know how to go about that. I began writing things here and there that were more outward focused.
My open letter to Survivors of Childhood Sexual Abuse from 2018 to this day resonates with others. Emails, Instagram and Facebook messages are still coming in from people quite literally around the world. To say this is humbling feels like the understatement of the century for me.
About four months ago I realized that my little blog was about to hit the decade mark and I decided that I wanted to revamp, revive, reimagine….re, re, re this little corner of the internet.
My vision of all the beautiful changes I could make happen in four months were over the top and lofty. Goals of months worth of posts being written and how I saw things going before launch day filled my heart.
The realization that the level of change I was desiring was not even close to realistic in this season of life has taken root. Dreams are great but sometimes you just have to make what you got work. I have spent hours going through old posts. Taking down ones that no longer sit well with me. I am proud of the growth that I see — my shift from girl to woman.
My vision for the foreseeable future with Nothing Like I Expected is to begin to create and share again.
I want to divulge what has been going on in my innermost being. Things like growing up in purity culture and deconstruction. I plan on sharing pieces of a vision I have for a book to encourage moms to take a RE. Odds are there will be re-imagining a piece I did early on called “Messy Housewife”. Lastly, my hope is to launch a podcast by my 33rd birthday. (but if it happens before my 34th I will be happy)
All of this to say, in year ten of my little piece of the internet will hopefully be full of thought provoking, insightful and encouraging things.
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