God’s Plan vs His Purpose

Plans change...Plans change but the purpose of God never does. Kris Vallotton from Bethel Church in Redding, California recently blew my mind with this teaching, God’s Purpose For Our Lives. When we shift our mindset and see that we are created for and with a purpose not a plan we are empowered to change the world. Continue reading

When Love Hurts

Water Gardens

Date Night with my Love just before we were engaged at Fort Worth Water Gardens

Oh, baby Lauren and Ian. So long ago. Our journey of love as we were headed towards marriage wasn’t free of hurt and heartache but the lessons I learned along the way have helped me ride out each wave of pain since. This is an exert out of my journal in the middle of our relationship on the way to the altar.

18 March 2010: Such torment comes with love. I hadn’t the foggiest. When I came home in August the last thing I expected to do was fall in love and that is just what happened. I fell head over heels in love with Ian Scott Miller. I tried not to but there was no stopping my heart. With every passing day the fear of it all faded and I embraced this new set of feelings that I never imagined would happen to me. It was wonderful. It was the greatest thing in the whole entire world. The sky was bluer, air fresher, aromas sweeter, life was brilliant and love songs never made more sense. Everything seemed to be right, not perfect but right. Butterflies took up residency in my stomach and I didn’t seem to mind. My life suddenly didn’t just involve me and what I wanted but it was what we wanted. My days were consumed with anticipation for his phone calls and longing for the next time we could possibly hug. I had never imagined life being so sweet. First loves truly are magical. Continue reading

The Call of Sacrifice

abraham-sacrifices-isaacHave you ever had to contend for something, really fight tooth and nail for it? It may be something that you feel the Lord had promised to you but it didn’t come easy or it came in a way you never expected. Abraham and Sara were promised a son, a nation actually, well before they were even Abraham and Sarah (Genesis 12). They were sent on what must have felt like an endless journey; although we can read about it in less than 10 chapters of the Bible for them it was 25 years from the promise of being a great nation to the birth of Isaac. That is a long time. Just now I am 26, to wait essentially my entire lifetime for something you were confident God said would come to pass would be truly grueling. To take charge when you don’t see it coming honestly seems logical in my finite mind, but doing such things causes Ishmaels to come forth instead of Isaacs. Continue reading